Hello Friends,

I was sober in AA for 8 and a half years.

I picked up a drink in Feb 07.  I've been on a slippery slide since.

My last drink was last night.  I feel like I'm having an anxiety attack.  I feel guilt, shame and remorse AGAIN.

I'm gonna try to do this again One Day At A Time.

Can you pray for me.

We only have 1 meeting a week in the town I'm in. 

My head is so messed up I can't even seem to navigate this site.  I'd love to find an online meeting right now.

Jenni

I'm glad you found us Jen!  Welcome to the Realm!

We will be happy to help you to stay sober -- as you know, it will get better, it just takes some time.

One day at a time!

Hi Jen. Welcome to Recovery Realm. We have meetings here every night and there are some during the day. Just check the meeting schedule on the main page. I look forward to seeing you in chat and at the meetings. Hang in there and just don't drink today.

From the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous:

"The fact is that most alcoholics, for reasons yet obscure, have lost the power of choice in drink.  Our so-called will power becomes practically non-existent.  We are unable, at certain times, to bring into our consciousness with sufficient force the memory of the suffering and humiliation of even a week or a month ago.  We are without defense against the first drink."

That's why alcoholism is cunning, baffling and powerful.

I can glamorize or romanticize that first drink all I want to, but I'm just going to wind up in the same place I was before -- pitiful, incomprehensible demoralization.