Sup all, My name is Sean and I'm an addict of cocaine, For the longest time I havn't been able to take my mind off the getting and using my drug of choice. For years, all I thought about was cocaine. I have spent the last two and a half months in a new life, a new place, a new job. This was not the first time I have started over, in fact my whole life I kept starting anew. What has changed ? I am asking myself daily. After all I have gone behind many girlfriends backs and spent their money along with mine to get what I wanted. What I've come up with is that my wants have changed. I look at all the people, family and friends that are moving forward with their lives, getting married, new cars, kids, buying a house for gods sake, the benefits of having a job for more than a year, health care, a bank account, credit cards, ect.....    All I have is two suitcases full of clothes, not even a car. Since I've found my love again I wake up every day and instead of thinking " How can I get a fix", I think " Today what can I do to move my life forward" The biggest thing is that I want to remember what I did this day, one day at a time. My life is not easy, I bicker and lose everyday, but the smile comes when I wake up in the morning, go to work and know I did not use,  I believe I've found something that most people do not,                                                                          A reason to  live.....                                          

Thank you for letting me share,,,,,                                                                                                                             An Addict Named Sean