I'm Katherine:  I am new here.  I am 33 and have been drinking regularly since i was a teen. 

Lately it has gotten worse:  i am blacking out, making poor decisions, falling...

It really sucks and I am angry and I need help, which is why I am here.

I dont want to stop drinking:  I dont want to be an alcoholic

I want control in my life and not to have these guilty feelings and shame over what i may have done the night before.

therefore i must admit i cannot control my drinking.  im an alcoholic.  i really didnot think this day would come.

thanks for reading.

Welcome, Katherine!

We have all been in the position you are right now -- none of us chose to be alcoholics, but many of us have learned to become grateful that we found recovery from alcoholism.

I look forward to getting to know you!