Hello, my name is Shaunna. I am 28 years old, and my sobriety date is Jan. 17th. I started smoking weed at the age of 12. Shortly after I started drinking. I had my first blackout at the age of 13 and awoke the next morning laying next to some older guy who should not have been sleeping with a 13 year old. After that I stopped drinking and started doing drugs, LSD, Cocaine, Exstacy, and eventually Meth. By the time I hit 21 I starting drinking regularly for the most part. By the age of 23, me and my husband (at that time we were unmarried but living together) decided that it was either keep doing the meth and break up, or stop. We both stopped and eight months later I was pregnant with our first child. Six months after she was born, I became pregnant with our second child. I was not happy with the second pregnancy, but could not bring myself to abort, and honestly I smoked pot during and as soon as I came home from the hospital I had that drink I wanted for those long 9 months. I used to numb myself, because I was depressed but didn't want to admit it and have to be on meds.I was not a happy person. I ended up trying to kill myself, and getting Baker-Acted for 72 hours and I had to look at the big picture of what got me there. I realized I needed to get sober. This is the first time since age 12 that I have been sober and I am happy. I have found through AA a hope that I have never known. That is pretty much all there is for now. |